Archive for the ‘Spiritual Wellbeing’ Category

I was bloghopping just now, and read an entry about Khalifah Umar Al Khattab here.


 The author was relating a story about how Khalifah Umar used to drink alcoholic drinks (arak) before he became a Muslim. And we all know the famous story about how Khalifah Umar buried his newborn daughter alive during jahilliyah times.


I find it quite interesting the way he hopes Zaid Ibrahim will follow the footsteps of Khalifah Umar – and reform himself to be a better person. Because when Khalifah Umar declared his syahadah, he completely became a new person – an extremely pious and God-fearing man. When he became the khalifah, he made so many changes and reformed the Islamic world. And Allah accepted his repentance because Khalifah Umar is one of Rasulullah’s sahabahs who has been promised Jannah. And he used to be an alcoholic!!!


Seriously, I think that the character assassination attempt by BN (i.e. by portraying the doctored photo of Zaid drinking a bottle of beer) has done more good to Zaid than damage his reputation! I should thank UMNO for this because people are now more openly admitting that they know our UMNO ‘leaders’ drink and gamble!



Anyway, we took the kids to watch How To Train Your Dragon in 3D last Sunday night. No, not in Ipoh of course, but in Midvalley KL since I was on official duties last weekend – 3D is still alien to the people living in Ipoh!


Not only were the kids excited, so were we! 

It was a cute story. It was worth paying RM56 for the tickets – RM17 for adults and RM11 for kids because the 3D effect was just fantastic. You could almost feel the dragon’s sharp tail piercing through the screen right into your face!


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I am watching the Hulu Selangor by-election closely.


The fight between PKR’s Datuk Zaid Ibrahim and BN’s Kamalanathan is getting intense, with only four days left for campaigning.


It would be interesting to see the sentiments of the people of Hulu Selangor, which may or may not be a reflection of the overall support towards Pakatan Rakyat. The general elections are coming up real soon, maybe in less than two years time, so it would be a platform for Pakatan Rakyat to reassess its position. What makes it more interesting is the fact that all three DUNs under Hulu Selangor are under BN.. but Arwah Datuk Zainal still won, although by a small majority. 


On a personal note, putting aside the politics and regardless of the final outcome of this by-election, I think I learnt one major lesson from this by-election. That it is never a shameful thing to admit your past mistakes, and get on with life. Seriously, despite the fact that it was a big sin, I was quite impressed by the way Datuk Zaid admitted that he used to drink alcohol in the past. Yes, as human beings, we all make mistakes. What is important is for us to admit that we have done it, repent and seek forgiveness from Allah, afterall isn’t Allah the Most Forgiving and the Most Merciful?


Allah has said in Surah Taha, verse 82: “And verily, I am indeed forgiving to him who repents, believes in My oneness, and associates none in worship with Me and does righteous good deeds, and then remains constant in doing them till his death”.


Believe in Allah. Have trust in Him. If you sin, repent and continue doing good deeds. Because Allah is the Most Forgiving! 

How often do I really, really seek forgiveness from Him for all my sins??

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Negativity is something I do not appreciate, and it is definitely not the feeling that I look forward to.


Sometimes, the vibes seem to be so strong that it makes me miserable and depressed for a few hours, or maybe even days.


I encountered this some few weeks back, after I had a discussion with two colleagues, on separate occasions. Despite that I empathize with the situation that they are in and as much as I try to understand their displeasure and frustration, that negativity affected me terribly.


Not everyone is happy with what they are doing or how they are treated in an organization but to me, that is absolutely normal. You just cannot please everyone. I am sure that they have tried to take into consideration each employee’s requirements but when you have a huge workforce, it is just impossible to make everyone happy.


And I will always remember this conversation that I had with ‘someone’ in the organization. He said to me, yes, it is okay to criticize your organization because one can never be fully satisfied, but don’t overdo it – and this is simply because that is where you earn your living – and you need to make sure that it is ‘halal’!


Anyway, aren’t we all responsible for our own happiness?


I once read this quote by an anonymous author, “People deal too much with the negative, with what is wrong. Why not try and see positive things, to just touch those things and make them bloom?”


But I cannot deny that I used to be quite negative sometime back, but I made a vow to improve. That is why, I try, as much as possible, to avoid meeting with negative people. When I get depressed, I force myself to act positive, think and nurture positive thoughts and pray that the bad vibes go away. I sincerely pray that my two friends will develop more positive feelings in life.


And I will always try to remember what Allah said in the Holy Quran, Surah Al Ra’d verse 11, that “…Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves…”


May we become successful khalifah in this world, which in turn will bring us everlasting success in the hereafter.


Happy 2010!

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I hope it is not too late to wish everyone Salam Ma’al Hijrah 1431.


I came across this beautiful hadeeth today, which reminds me that every day, I get closer to meeting Him and being judged by Him at Mahsyar:


Abu Barzah al-Aslami radi Allahu anhu reported that Allah’s Messenger sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam said, “The two feet of the servant will not cease (from standing before Allah) on the Day of Judgment until he is asked about four things: on his life and how he spent it; on his knowledge and what he did with it; on his wealth and where he earned it and how he spent it; and on his body and in what way he utilized it.” [Saheeh, reported by At-Tirmidhi]


Wishing you 12 months of taufiq, 52 weeks of hidayah, 365 days of barakah, 8760 hours of patience, 525600 minutes of zuhud and 315,360,000 seconds of redha!


To my dear friends, Yasmin and Rozlinda, whose mothers coincidentally returned to the Creator on the same day last week, stay strong and I pray that their souls be blessed and placed among the pious.

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Six Things

I came across this beautiful hadith today.


Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said, “If you guarantee me six things on your part I shall guarantee you Paradise: Speak the truth when you talk, Keep a promise when you make it, When you are trusted with something fulfil your trust, Avoid sexual immorality, Lower your gaze (in modesty), and Restrain your hands from injustice.” (Al-Tirmidhi, Hadith 1260).


This hadith actually says a lot of things, which may seem easy to accomplish. But in actual truth, it is difficult. Especially that last bit… because humans are weak… and thus we may always have feelings of hatred or jealousy towards others… or hold grudges over the people around us… or worse still, look down on others. And we may have, whether intentionally or otherwise, acted in an unfair or unjust way towards others. Na’uzubillah.


This hadith also reminds us that integrity is an indispensible attribute of every Muslim.


I am humbly reminded today that I must strive to purify my inner self, my heart, my qalb… all the time.

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Why do people find it so hard to forgive and forget?

Seriously, everyone makes mistakes. We are all human beings. We are definitely not ma’sum, neither are we angels. In fact, we commit mistakes every other minute. If not to human beings, to other creations of Allah… and definitely, we commit sins to Allah. Dosa mata, dosa mulut, dosa tangan… and even worse, dosa hati. We may think that no one knows how we feel, but Allah knows. And on the Day of Judgment, not only will Allah question us on our deeds, but also every single feeling or thought that comes across our hearts, or minds.

But then again, human beings are what they are. There are some things in life that we, as human beings, just cannot tolerate. And these are things that really bother our souls. We try to forget it, we try to get it out of our mind we try to have husnuz-zan (bersangka baik) towards whoever has hurt us… but the truth is, we tend to hold a grudge on that someone forever. It is just not that easy to forgive and forget.

When I am faced with such a situation, I try, as much as possible, to think of Rasulullah s.a.w. and emulate his character … for Rasulullah is the most perfect human being ever created, and no one in this world will ever get close to what he is.

I try to forgive. I try to forget. I try to remind myself that I am just a human being. If Rasulullah s.a.w. forgave the people of Taif for throwing stones at him and prayed that they become Muslims, who am I to be so arrogant and not forgive others? And Allah… isn’t He the Most Forgiving???

Ya Allah, please forgive me for all my wrongdoings and for my sins. I pray that you open up the hearts of those whom I have hurt in one way or another, to forgive me for my mistakes. And Allah, grant me the hidayah and courage to forgive those who have hurt me, intentionally or otherwise.

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Reflections on Eid

It was a quiet raya for us.


I did not take any extra days for Eid, so practically I had to go back to work yesterday. And as expected, it was a very extremely unproductive day at work. There was no one to talk to, except to 3 or 4 other people in another department. So, I spent one whole day trying to complete some pending tasks… which did not materialize in the end anyway.


On the first day of Raya, we went back to Kampung Luat, my husband’s kampong and visited his mom’s ‘final abode’. However, Raya felt different this time. Well, for me at least. His uncle was recently appointed as YDP PAS Lenggong, so we (well… again, it is me in particular) felt a bit more at ease. We spent about an hour talking to him, and trying to understand what he plans to do for his ‘constituency’. I hope more and more people will understand our ultimate aim, insya Allah. All the best to you Pak Teh, and we pray for your success.




Anyway, this Eid, I spent a lot of time reflecting on Ramadhan. As I tried to revisit my weaknesses and ponder upon things which I wanted to do, but did not manage to accomplish, I prayed hard that I will get to meet Ramadhan next year, insya Allah.


Yes, it was 29 days of training – emotionally, spiritually and physically. I read Ustaz Hasrizal’s recent article entitled Dilema Istiqamah Pasca Ramadhan and thought… he was so correct when he said that we should take the opportunity to train ourselves to be better Muslims. But he also reminded us of Surah Hud, verses 112 – 115:




112.   So stand (ask Allâh to make) You (Muhammad) firm and Straight (on the Religion of Islâmic Monotheism) as You are commanded and those (your companions) who turn In repentance (unto Allâh) with you, and transgress not (Allâh’s legal limits). Verily, He is All-Seer of what You do.

113.   And incline not toward those who do wrong, lest the Fire should touch you, and You have no protectors other than Allâh, nor You would Then be helped .

114.   And perform As-Salât (Iqâmat-as-Salât), at the two ends of the Day and In some hours of the night [i.e. the five compulsory Salât (prayers)]. Verily, the good deeds remove the evil deeds (i.e. small sins). that is a Reminder (an advice) for the mindful (those who Accept advice).

115.   And be patient; Verily, Allâh loses not the reward of the good-doers.


Well, it is the same experience for me every year. Before Ramadhan, I would have a checklist on things I want to improve, and I rarely reach up to 50% of my target.


Therefore, I will keep this list of what I did okay, what I did not do well enough, and what I want to do better next time, in my diary. I hope it will remind me to continuously improve myself.


May Allah accept all our good deeds and keep us doing them even after Ramadhan has ended, Ameen.

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